Lights were flashing behind me as I was driving. I quickly asked myself if I had been driving badly but I knew that couldn’t be it. It had been weeks since I crashed into anything… I barely noticed them because my window tint is so dark on my vehicle. And then I realized I was […]
Home Smash Home
I sliced open the tape of the last moving box to reveal its contents. There, wrapped ever so gently, was a bunch of shit I didn’t really care about and could live without. “I don’t even remember owning this.” I thought to myself. I was so done with unpacking. But this was kind of it. […]
God is Not High Fiving Me
I cried today. I also cried three days in a row last week. It got to a point where my husband had to ask if I am getting my period. He asked ever so gently, tiptoeing around the word “period.” Like a good boy, but honestly shame on him for even asking in the first […]
New Year, Old Me
January has come and gone. Gone with it are the bullshit resolutions I make every year that I do not accomplish. Am I disappointed in myself for failing? Oh no no no. I take pride in the fact that I have good intentions. It makes me feel like a better person knowing I planned on […]
Postpartum From His Perspective
From the view of my wonderful husband during my darkest moments.
Is it Dark in Here, or am I Just Depressed?
I dragged myself out of bed after what seemed like the millionth night in a row with insomnia. I walked to the bathroom sink and as I mustered up the strength to support myself with my tired arms leaning on the counter, I slowly looked up at the mirror. I couldn’t see the person staring […]
Losing Teeth & Losing Years
My baby is losing his first tooth. So I suppose I should not call him “my baby” anymore. Especially considering he is the oldest of three children. Many people on my social media are currently in the throes of parenthood so my feed is packed full of articles about motherhood and being in “survival mode” […]
Feel Good or Fix Yo’self.
Whenever I show up to the playground with my kids in tow my friends give me a hard time. It’s 9:00 in the morning (just kidding, it’s 10:30 because I can’t get out of the house any sooner) and I have a full face of makeup on. I contoured the shit out of my face […]
When One Door Closes, Buy Another One.
7:00am. The household was sleeping while my dad and I had a quick cup of coffee together before we took off for work. I could feel my heart pounding because this was the moment I had to tell him what I had done… I had asked for a transfer at work, and my twenty year […]
Pack a Backbone in that Backpack
How can we ensure our children are okay when we send them off into the great big world every day? I was prepared to have kids. I knew how to change a diaper. I could shove a boob or a bottle in their mouth if they cried. But I wasn’t prepared to have them grow […]